Let it Breathe

Its funny how I can shift gears so quickly...I push push push wanting wanting, visualizing. Thinking, dreaming, plotting. But then the next day I pray/chant and wake up to the fact that no matter how hard I try to make something work or materialize itself it doesn't always work, and shouldn't always work. As the Buddha says, "we create our own suffering". Our attachments and desires and greed that we hold tightly in our minds and hearts, are often the very things that will lead us away from TRUE happiness. Like everything good in this life, it is a fine balance. The middle path. I have to work daily to find my middle. I can go high high full of adrenaline. And then drop to quiet, introspective, exhausted, somewhat agoraphobic, too much in my head. I am learning not to judge myself to harshly b/c with these mood swings comes inner knowledge and ultimately compassion for others struggling. Life is a struggle. There is a lot to do, always. Ones attitude truly makes a difference. And who you surround yourself with affects who you are. I have to watch myself to not get distracted or swayed by other peoples' highs and lows. I find this to be extremely difficult but everyday I am working on it and seeing the difference. This also leads to not judging others. Or being compassionate but somewhat detached from other peoples' "stuff". I am finally learning that I cannot fix anyone else. And you know what..they haven't asked me! I can be a bleeding heart wanting to make the world soft and sweet, but everyone must tend to themselves. I do not hold all of the answers and its not up to me to give other people answers anyway. Who am I ? I am just someone like you. Living in this world. Trying to be successful, happy, in love, healthy, and free. We are all in this together. But only by becoming 1 strong can we become strong together.
So lessen up on your grip. LET GO. Whether it be for finding love, a perfect job, a house, losing weight, or surpassing an addiction. Be gentle but disciplined in learning to love yourself. When you let if breathe, you let the flow in and open yourself up to an entire new world of possibilities.
Sweet dreamzzz...
xoxxmc